I also hate myself for thinking too much and then pinching and slapping myself to go to sleep. And when I look at my clock besides me on my night stand, and it says a glowing “2:00” I swear under my breath and think this whole thing is stupid. So I turn on the lights and do some reading, but I can’t quite read what the words that lay on the page, and nothing seems to make sense. I try again with a movie and then a game and then just sitting there feeling stupid. Somehow, sometime, I never remember, I fall asleep and wake up feeling like crap and looking like crap.